lets just say yesterday was one of the worste nights of my life, i went to prom with a girl i really liked met her family and parents, bought a tux, bought her flowers, a corsausge, opened the door for her, got pictures with her, pushed her chair in for her…..and basicly spilled my heart. I got to prom and she ignored me the entire time…… then she said was pissed at me b/c the way i act(outing, talkative). Then she ditched me after dinner from 7-11 i was alone with no date. I feel like total shit. I went back to the table with tears in my eyes, and sat down and drew, cuz thats what i do when im depressed. Im never good enouh for anyone i want…. never could quite reach there expectations. So i sat alone at the table while every1 else was having a good time and thought about everything about how i was just a rebound date b/c she didnt want to go “alone”. It was soposed to one of those nights that something amazing happens and your with sum1 you care about, but i guess that shits just for fairy tales. Never have i been treated like garbage so bad. I feel like a worthless piece of shit. Sometimes , Sometimes i just want to runaway.
Fuck life. Fuck love. Fuck her.Fuck prom. Fuck Familys. Fuck my Dreams. Fuck Desire. Fuck School. Fuck the World. Fuck Work. Fuck me. Fuck Everything.
I DONT OWE THIS WORLD SHIT
PAST PREASENT FUTURE EVERYTHING IS FUCK AND IT WAS ALL MEANT TO BE